I want Zack :/

But I’m so confused on this whole facebook stalking.

There’s some Katie girl whose liked or commented vomitable things on the few pictures he has, some that are from 2010 and whatever. And then on his wall today she wrote “2 years and 5 months with the love of my life <3”

But I know him to be single. Maybe it’s just a friend? It just seems weird though. And it goes along with the tweets Amanda read between him and Meghan mentioning her.

Kyle keeps hinting that I should go for him. He made out with me last week on a dare. But still if you’re in a relationship I don’t think you’d do that.

I want this to happen. He’s sp shy though, even Kyle says so.

What to do :/

I wish I could tell my friends, but that would be all wrong.

They would make it worse. They wouldn’t understand.

I’m not used to having a crush on someone. Usually I like someone because they like me. This is new and scary for me.

Crush. It’s such a weird thought. Liking someone who has absolutely no idea how much of an affinity I have for them.

I don’t know how to get them to notice or care. I think I ruined my chances by being boring me.

I want to get a tattoo symbolizing inner peace, any ideas of what?

I didn’t tell the best part.

After I went to sleep on the couch I woke up and had to pee so I went up stairs where I guess I woke him or he was already awake. He yelled to me in the hall and told me to come into his room. So I did and I sat in the chair by his bed, but see, that’s all that happened. I don’t know why he told me to come in. He even went through the effort to get up and unlock the door. We were falling back asleep just sitting(or in his case laying) there so I just went back to my couch.

I wish he would’ve offered to share his bed. I almost crawled back in later when the house was making creepy noises.

I’m in love with a boy who either barely cares that I exist or hates me.

His name is Peter. He is a friend.

It’s that love at first sight feeling (love at first sight doesn’t exist, it’s just a certain feeling you get when you see a person you want to fight to get in your life after first being introduced).

What a beautiful boy. His eyes and his body make me slightly giddy. I wish he could point that perfect smile at me.

I slept with his best friend. But I want him. It was just a hook up, nothing since and no flirty texts or bullshit.

I just want to hear him say my name like last night when he taught me the jello shot tongue trick. Sexy(or was that just him?). I got it on my first try.

I can’t tell my friends about this crush. They are so embarrassing in only the best ways. I think they were trying to convince him to hook up with me last night but he was like, “she hooked up with my best friend!”

I don’t want to hook up with him. I want to love him.

I’m afraid of love. I always pull the short straw. Perpetual loser.

Back from the dead.

Maybe. Maybe not.

Don’t waste my time saying that we should hang out when you clearly end up showing you don’t give a fuck.

You seemed so genuine and then I let you in, but not all the way, and now things seem like they’re gone. Yeah, the way things ended wasn’t ideal but you had places to go and I didn’t want to make you stay. Where are you now? Just show me where you stand because it’s not too late for me to turn my back on this and come out unharmed. Please don’t hurt me if it’s not necessary.

I had a dream about my ex last night. We were kissing. I want what I had last summer back even though I will never get that again. I just keep wondering what would happen if we kissed now? Would that feeling still be there, or is it as gone as your feelings for me?